It's Go Time

It's go time.

Falling Off Track

I'm falling off track a little, as I'm having trouble sleeping at night. It seems like I spend more time worrying about not reaching my goal, then thinking about how awesome it will be when I achieve it. I'm not giving up though as there's plenty of time left. Also, I have already improved quite a bit in the last two weeks, since before I started my journey to become the biggest natural bodybuilder of all time. Because of certain unpredicted, unfortunate circumstances... life sometimes gets you down. This is normal, and it's all part of the process of becoming successful. You have to go through the bad to get to the good. There's so many ways to look at this, that will make you understand that it's necessary. For one, how do you know what happiness is, if you've never suffered or come accross any obstacles. This reminds me of the first time I heard the following expression. Well, it might not have been the first time I heard it... But it was definitely the first time I payed any attention to it. Here it is: "We are most afraid of what we want the most". That's why the obstacles and unfortunate circumstances that seem to kick us off track, I believe, were/are created by ourselves. I'm the reason why I'm not improving as fast as I'd like. Bad weather, lack of finances, and bad genetics are nothing compared with our own limiting beliefs. For example, if subconsciously I don't think I'm good enough for my goal... meaning I don't deserve the recognition or anything positive that will arise out of me achieving it... then I'll start to see physical obstacles. I know this sounds crazy, but trust me when I say it's the truth... You really are your only obstacle. I am my only real obstacle. What's important for me right now is to start to shift my mindset to a more 'feeling' state, one where I feel what it's like to have already achieved my goal. I first learnt about this in the underground hit movie The Secret. For some people, the movie is a reminder of what we already know. But, one thing's for sure... Most people don't use what they already know (which is that they have the power to direct their mind to whatever they want in life, and as a result manifest it). I hope you guys and gals are using your mind to realize your dreams. It's possible. Just believe in yourself.

Cardio Only Once per Week

I've decided to do cardio only once per week for the following two or three months. Here in Montreal the sun has already begun setting by about 5 pm. The lack of sun creating extremely cold weather makes our winters pretty unbearable. Dealing with daily snow shoveling and constant car problems makes it even more brutal. All of these combined have the effect of lowering your energy levels... which is why I've decided to decrease my cardio training frequency (from 2-3 days to only 1 day of cardio). I don't want to burn my muscles out, as gaining muscle mass (and not leaning down) is my priority right now. As always, I'm still going to do about 20-30 minutes of intense aerobic exercise... probably on the eliptical runner.

For the incredible challenge I've given myself, this might not seem like enough cardio... At least not when it comes to leaning down. I had originally planned to achieve my goal within 3 months (and I might have already mentioned that in one of my first blog posts)... But, it's just unrealistic. I know I would be able to do it under more "normal" conditions, meaning better weather. It's quite alright because for now I should be focused on gaining mass anyways. Even if I get a little fat (which I doubt will happen because my weight training workouts are pretty intense), I'll give myself the last 2-3 months (of my 6 month journey) purely to lean down. I have a very fast metabolism, so this shouldn't be a problem. Seeing that I'll need to be 'bodybuilding lean', meaning extremely lean and dry as well, I'll have to gain at least another 50 pounds from here until February 5th, 2010 (before I focus on stripping off about 20 pounds of fat). That gives me less than 3 months to accomplish the impossible. Well, of course, I don't believe it's impossible and I'm going to prove to others that it's not.

In sum, my original plan to lean down as I gain mass, has shifted to gain serious muscle mass for the next two and a half months, and then focus on leaning down for the last 3 months... to get to a naturally huge, naturally ripped, record-breaking 215 pounds. I understand if some of you are thinking that 215 pounds is not really that huge. But trust me, 215 pounds of lean muscle looks twice as big as 250 pounds of fat. Besides, my ultimate, ultimate goal (which I'll disclose in the near future) is much more than the goal weight of 215 pounds. Still, my reaching a shredded 215 pounds should not be undermined as it will definitely classify me as the biggest natural bodybuilder of all time (plus, I've never weighed more than 207 pounds).

I don't mean to sound arogant nor am I implying that this journey I'm on is going to be an easy road that I'm certain will end in success. Like I said, I've never weighed more than 207 pounds so I'm running pretty much on faith right now. Also, it's been not even two weeks since I started my journey and already I've ran into many roadblocks. I've had to adapt and have made the necessary changes to my weight training, cardio training, work schedule, sleep schedule, etc. What's important to me right now is to use all of my knowledge, all of my experience, and every other tool God has gifted me with to pursue my potential. In other words, the goal is secondary to the journey. I can dream all I want about my goal, and know my whole life that it's possible for me to achieve it, but if I don't take the necessary steps towards it... It will never become a reality. What I'm attempting to do, this journey, is the hardest mission I'll ever give myself.

Change of Plans

There's been a change of plans everyone. I apologize if I had originally mentioned that I would post a new YouTube video every 3rd Friday demonstrating my progression... But, I didn't take into account the fact that editing videos takes quite a bit of time and so I've decided to postpone this task for the length of my journey. I'm still going to be filmed every 3 weeks or so (while doing a full weight training workout)... And my incredible transformation could be viewed in a couple of months. Once I reach my goal (as I'm confident that I will) and I complete the editing of what will be an entire documentary film, I'll post it to YouTube. I'll let you all know about my exact plans in the near future, here on this blog. I kind of wanted to build a buzz of anticipation about my journey by posting the videos often, but it's just too draining for me right now and I wouldn't want to compensate by not reaching my goal. I need to rest quite a bit, and eat very often throughout the day. These elements of muscle-building combined with training alone take up lots of time. It's even difficult to work part-time at my job which is what I'm currently doing. So, I've decided to stick to a new plan. Do what I need to do to for the length of the journey... plus, put up at least 4-5 blog posts per week. I don't want any of you to think that this 'journey' is a type of publicity stunt for me to drive more traffic to my website or business. Trust me, I do want more traffic but I'm also very honest about what I intend on doing. Reaching my natural muscle-building potential is my dream, my passion, my gift. I know that all of the good things that life has to offer will come, once I reach my goal. This blog and the the final documentary are a way to document my journey and share my experiences with others who are also looking for prosperity. Stay tuned!